I am noticing the things that I do to avoid preparing for a presentation.
Like writing in this blog.
There is a side of me that wants to wing it in a meeting. I want things to be spontaneous and fresh. But at the same time, I think I lose opportunities to hone the message. To be more polished, perhaps. To make sure that I connect with key messages.
I need to get back to that. I talk about really opening to feelings and experiences, and yet, here I am, doing everything I can not to open to the process of preparation. Am I afraid of feeling nervous? Am I afraid of feeling unprepared? Or I am afraid of the work itself?
Time to find out.